Day 4 – Pancakes for breakfast with a banana for our one year old (with apple sauce for the kids; another cheat); a smoothie for a snack made with banana, peanut butter, milk, oatmeal and ice; peanut butter sandwiches and leftover lentil stew for lunch (I had an orange); saltine cracker and a few banana chips for a an afternoon snack; Gnocchi (potato pasta) with boiled carrots and broccoli for dinner.

The Gnocchi was delicious. But I do wish I could have had it in some soup or garlic sauce.

I am ready for this experiment to be done. I get it now; it’s hard. Can I get back to a balanced diet (with lots of sugary treats for good measure)? I don’t mean to sound like I don’t care. On the contrary, I care a great deal. But at what point do I say, enough’s enough? I would like to think that this week I stand in solidarity with 1.4 billion people throughout the world who don’t get enough to eat, or at least not enough good food to eat. I want to do more for these people, but what? At this point I just feel like I am on an ill-advised diet.

The most difficult thing for today came at work. Lunch was ordered in for a meeting with some clients. After the meeting was done, there was a lot of extra food. There were big, meaty sandwiches, a tray with several kinds of fruit, some crackers and scones. It looked amazing. And I couldn’t touch any of it. Jana wondered why I could turn free food down while doing this challenge, but not any other time in my life. I’m not sure of the answer to that, but it probably has to do with the fact that I feel accountable to those of you who are following these posts. I guess I don’t want to let you down. What if we all held a similar attitude for the earth’s poor? What if we felt accountable to our many brothers and sisters who lived without the very necessities of life? In our globalized world, we very well should consider how our daily decisions impact the most destitute in the world. LDS scripture tells us that there are enough resources for everyone on the planet, but this is based on the condition that we impart of our substance to the poor and the needy (see Doctrine and Covenants 104:13-18).